In memoriam of...

Today a very sad day....

Attending the one of your family funeral isn’t a pleasant thing.

My aunt died this morning.. I was really sad and shocked to hear that.

She suffered from breast cancer, which we recently found out.

She did not ever tell if she had a cancer.. a few months ago she fell ill and since then we learned that she had advanced-stage cancer. it was very bad.

The cancer has spread to other organs. She had undergone chemotherapy several times but no avail.

She become thinner, and frail. besides that, her family also facing very

serious problems.

I wouldn’t tell because it's not my place to say.. it’s just too complicated.
I can not bear to see my cousins, they continue crying when their mother was buried.

I can’t imagine if it happened to me...

I mean, I really love my mother. although we don’t always get along, and sometimes I’m not obeyed her. But actually I really loved her with all my soul. I don’t want to lose her.
I maybe sound a little too much, but it's true.
I can only hope that my cousins can go through bravely.. and her soul rest in peace.

I remember the times when I was a little kid, my Aunt was taking care of me while my Mom had to work.

She’s very gentle and kind. I don’t understand why fate should be like this.
I do not know what else to say ..

Forgive me for being like this..

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.."

Dream a little dream of me

Hi everyone, I'm in gloomy mood today. well, that's maybe because I didn't have a good sleep last night and a lot of pressure yesterday. So, actually I can't sleep until 3 am and start having a weird dream. Every person must have experienced a strange dream. But, I just wanna share about my dreams last night ( is 3 am considered to be "last night" ? Lol ).

I dreamed I saw myself ( in a prettier version of course ! :D ) with a man standing on the edge of the sea, We look happy but I feel a little sad. And then suddenly we were plunged aka suicide in the sea. I was confused but I was still able to smile at him. Then we parted, I woke up in a place that I do not know. Then I no longer see but I feel is in the girl's ( me) body.

I was in a world that is completely different and very foreign to me. I'm confused, scared. Then a young woman approached me and asked my acquaintance. In short, we are friends and I asked her where I am now. She did not tell me but just smiled and took me around, I feel the people around me gave me a strange look. And, this is the funniest thing in my dream because I can shop. Yes, would you think if I was crazy? I think I am..

Suddenly she was scared, I saw there was a train that fast moving behind her. But it looks too blurry. Oddly enough, I did not get hit when I was standing right next to the woman. She's running scared, and I was chasing her. Until the train stopped chasing her.
I am very worried and scared, so I asked her why she could be chased by the train? She said that she had died hit by a train.

There was something click on my head. It means ... I also die?
She told me to meet someone who can explain everything to me. She muttered something about burning skulls and something else .. before I could understand what she meant, I woke up ..

And that's just the weirdest dream I've ever had...

I feel like I should keep a dream journal from now on.

"A dream is a succession of images, thoughts, sounds, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep "